In Memory or Cecil Jones

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See You Later

The following is a poem written to my Father, Cecil Jones for the funeral service held on Thursday, July 23, 2009.

We often fool ourselves
Thinking our parents will live forever
Then we are reminded that
Our lives here on Earth are only temporary

I won't say Good-Bye
Because that would mean
I would never see you again.
So Instead I'll say, "I'll see you later in Heaven".

There are so many things
I want to say...
I love you
I miss you
I will see you later

Even though the pain of missing you is great
The joy of seeing you later is greater

You were loved by many
And many were loved by you
Your legacy of loving others
Is and example we ALL should do

You are such an inspiration
To never give up
To trust God completely
And to live life to the fullest

Until yesterday (July 21, 2009) I never really knew
That my dad wasn't just mine
He loved 3 more as his own
It was at that moment I realized
My dad was a Father
Not only to myself
But to Shannon, Ryan, and Jeff

To call him father
Meant he loved us first
Like God our Father in Heaven
God loved us first

Thank you father
For showing us
The meaning of love
The meaning of compassion
The meaning of faithfulness
And the meaning of meekness
Your reward is in Heaven
As our reward will be to see you again

Being Sick

Being Sick is just horrible. Ask my wife, I hate being sick. Not only cannot I not do the things I want to do, I feel horrible while trying to do anything. I am a big baby when it comes to being sick. I whine a lot! I guess it's in my nature. When I was a kid, the more whining I did, the more stuff and attention I got from Mom and Dad. I guess it's still the kid in me whining. Anyways, Michele has been awesome this week. She has yelled at me for getting things for myself. I tell her I am sick of lying in bed and need to get up and move around.

So today I am at work after being off the last few days. I am still not back to 100% but feel better today than I have been. I am more dizzy today than anything. My head feels like it is going to float away. Like I said I am big whiner when I am sick. I am trying to get thru today but we will see how it goes. I am not sure if it is my medicine or just the sickness making me feel this way. Oh well, I know soon I'll be better. Good news from this I am down to smoking only 10 *1/2 cigarettes a day. So its like only smoking 5 a day. It chokes me to even light one up lately. I am hoping I can keep up with this so I can quit soon. That would be awesome.

I did mention to the doctor on Monday, that I have been sick like this 6 times since June. I had been to the doctor 4 times and to the ER 2 times. The doctor didn't seem too concerned about it at this time. I keep thinking, either she is not concerned because I smoke, the fact I get better with each dose of antibiotics, or she's a quack. I am starting to get concerned tho. One of the medications she had me on, singulair(sp?), has a side effect of upper respiratory infections and 2 of them that were back to back was during the time I was taking the allergy medicine. I stopped taking it and it my upper respiratory problems seemed to disappear until recently. I didn't have any problems for about 2 solid months. My concern is why I keep having these. Hopefully this dose of antibiotics will get rid of what ever it is that keeps causing it. If this doesn't do it, I will definitely ask to be referred to an allergist to diagnose it that way. I don't know. I am not a doctor, but it seem s to me that you would want to diagnose the cause of the symptoms and not just the symptoms.

I know what does this have to do with anything. I don't know, I just know I like to whine when I am sick.

So that's it, now you know.

Thanks

Richard

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Exhausting Day….

Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. Normally I would force myself to stay up and write something but tonight I am going to turn in early.

I hope you all have a great Happy Mother’s Day.

See you all on Monday 5-12-08.

In Christ’s Love
WLBC-Webmaster
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Lost

Do you ever feel lost? Lost in the world or in life in general? I know I do sometimes. More so this past weekend.
This weekend, actually this past week, I have felt lost and just gloomy. I am not sure why. For several weeks before this, I felt on top of the world, ok maybe not that great but really good about life in general. There is not any one thing that is really bringing me down this week. I have not been able to really find the cause of it yet. I am hoping I do find it soon though. It has been very difficult to focus on God, Family, Church, finances, and daily routines. I think part of it has to do with my frustration with myself.
The frustration I have with myself, I seem to find myself dealing with on a regular basis. What frustration you might ask. Well let me see…
• Being overweight
•Smoking
•Finances
•Relationship with God
•Relationship with my wife
•Relationship with my son
•Relationships with the rest of my family
•Relationships with friends (or lack of friends)
•Impure thoughts
•Work
I think you get the drift. Basically everything in my life I am questioning myself about. Am I good enough? Why do I continue to struggle with so much sin? Why can’t I get close enough to God. Why does my relationships seem to be slipping away. Why can’t I feel love?
Good Grief, I am praying God will just let me get a grip on things. Or get a grip on me. Everything that is said or done, I analyze it and think the worst or add negativety to it. Oh my what a vicous circle I am in. I just feel like quitting everything sometimes. Not my life though, I still wanna live. Although if i quit everything there isn’t much to my life, is there?
I pray God will just slap this funk out of me or at least show me where my funk is coming from. I hate feeling like this. I just feel worthless and lost. It makes my head spin.
OK so I always wanted to share what is going on in my life and I think I will take this blog and put it under a different category. I don’t think this one counts as “Learning Daily”. Its more like “Daily Processing”. That doesn’t sound overly depressing and shows some optimism.
Well I think that is enough self wallowing for now.
I hope you don’t think less of me now, but pray for me.
Thanks for reading.
In Christ’s Love
WLBC-Webmaster
Processing